I’ve picked myself up and made a decision this week to start my health journey…again. I’ve gained 12 pounds since returning to work in November. I have abandoned clean eating habits. I have agreed to take on more than I can reasonably handle in my job and let the stress manifest itself through bad eating and skipping gym work outs. I wrote previously about being in a rut and not knowing how to turn all the negative energy I had running through my system around. There are a few things I’ve done this month to make that change:
- In my new job, I find myself responsible for my organization’s wellness program. What a great fit for me! We currently have our annual wellness event going on right now and it has included a health clinic for employees where you can sign up to have your blood pressure, cholesterol, and BMI measured. I have never had my cholesterol levels calculated and to my surprise my total cholesterol is high! Whaaaat? I thought I ate pretty decently but maybe it’s time to look at changing my diet with the goal of lowering my cholesterol—a new challenge! Also, sadly my BMI is back in the “overweight” range. Again, whaaaaaaat? That’s not ok with me. So I’m using this experience to kick start better eating.
- I attended a unique coaching course as part of my professional development through my job where we learned how to use art and sketching to coach clients. While this was meant to be a train the trainer course, I used my own issues about not being successful in losing weight and moving past that focus in my life. I was brutally honest about myself with my fellow course participants, and they helped me articulate what the problems really are, and what I need to do about it. I left that course having a lot more clarity. Basically I realized I am really hard on myself. I am goal driven to the point of being handicapped by my goals—I get really focused and go all out. When I don’t make my goals I just give up out of frustration. I also put words to why I feel so devastated about going back to work from maternity leave: my current line of work is not in alignment with my personal values anymore. My values have shifted since having kids. And it’s important to me to align what I do for a living with what I value. So now that I have pinpointed what’s at the root of my unhappiness these days, I need to go about resolving that.
- It was recommended to me after getting my high cholesterol numbers that I should get a nutrition coach. I’m all about coaching! And it’s a free 12 week program that is offered through my organization. I am signing up for this next week. I also set up a meeting with another performance coach to talk about aligning my work with my personal values.
- This month I also made a decision to cut back on working in the evenings and weekends. A lot of it is unavoidable. But I am going to push back when clients ask for deadlines that have me working until midnight most nights. It’s not worth my health and weight loss goals. The briefing note coming a day later will not bring down the sky.
- I’m sticking with my run clinic. I’m running my 4th half marathon at the end of May, and have trained my way through a hip injury this winter. I can run 16K in just over 90 minutes. Getting back into running after an injury has been an important exercise in discipline.
I’m recommitting to making 2014 my year to hitting my goal weight. That is my primary goal this year, and I’ve been pushing it aside until now.